I am sitting in my shower, with a cigarette in my hand, I’ve definetily rocked bottom.
I’ve been in constants situations of loving and not be loved, of giving and not recieved, of create ilusions and end with superficial sex…
Let me clear this for you guys, one of my passions in life are love and romance, I am a doomed hopeless romantic, is just a part of myself, like my traveler heart, my passion for my career. So this situations that have been happening since The last couple of years, and after all the constants “sorry I dont love you back” “I dont like you that way” “I dont see myself with you” “I just wanna have fun” are finally ending with me… I feel tired, hopeless, without faith, angry, ashamed of me for acting like such a stupid child; I feel like a part of my is dying, like when a person lost their love to god, even if that person believed with all their soul, but there are no reasons to keep believing, man is tough.
I dont want to sound overdramatic, but I really feel like this, I am so lost, I dont know who I am anymore, I am so heart broken.
Please, someone, guide me, advice me, I need it…
Thank you.