not clutter but culture (typo error)

Hi Anita! Thanks for your thoughts. His daughter and I get along well. I think it was just me who was feeling that at the time to find an explanation why he’s distant. He told me once that he has never “given his heart to anyone ” and that I may be that first person he’ll love, so I was devastated when he let me go that easy. My number one problem is I miss the twice a day FaceTime—when waking up in the morning till I go to work and when he goes wakes up and it’s my time to work. I’m so confused because there was no argument that happened, no goodbyes. And now I miss him so much and won’t return my texts nor calls. Can’t we be at least civil about it. And start again as friends? His family likes me.

Hi, Anita!

I understand that I don’t have any control over him or on the situation. All this “no contact rule” I don’t think applies to him and me. I am doing my best to take my mind off him—I started yoga again. I am taking swimming lessons, I enrolled in a one on one spiritual direction course. I am also praying and hoping for a miracle. A miracle that will change his heart about me, that he will take me back and that we will both be healed of resentment and pride. The we be given a fresh start, clear understanding of what happened and what we learned form the relationship. All I wanted is a second chance. I pray the God and the universe will grant me this chance. I don’t want to lose hope.

Hi Anita!

Please allow me to tell you about our background. I am a doctor and he’s a dentist. Last april when I was there, I was able to convince him to get an executive check up which he hasn’t done for years. Everything was ok except that he has to have a colonoscopy. I told him to schedule the procedure when I get to Maine in June so at least I can be there with him. That whole time we were okay. The three of us even his daughter. Unfortunately, the colo was scheduled the day after Father’s Day. So naturally we were all just staying in the house instead of going out because of all the preps for the procedure. That Sunday, we were all bored and irritable. His daughter kept pretending to be sick like him. At night, the three of us sleeps in one bed, his daughter wanted to FaceTime her mother, so me and my BF went out of the room to give the kid and her mother some privacy. I went downstairs and laid on the sofa and I fell asleep. I woke up cold, when I went up I saw the two sleeping. That tipped me off. I told My BF in the morning that, how was he able to sleep without even wondering where I was, if I was comfortable or not. And so I blurted, maybe we should have a break because you will never be sweet and caring. I don’t think you will change and that I will ever learn to accept that he’s never gonna change. Then he said ok, let’s have a break. Then I said, I want to go home now, I don’t know what I am doing here. So we arranged the earliest flight I can get. He took me to the airport and just dropped me. No more conversations whatsoever.

Space in his heart (typo)

Hi Anita!

I like him because he has this calming effect on me. He’s very patient maybe because of his military background. He is smart, kind, a good person, he can be charming if he wants to. He is very regimented which is the opposite of me. He can be funny. He doesn’t get angry. We have very interesting conversations….That drive was one of my greatest regrets, I could have talked too. I love him. I guess I hurt his ego by leaving. He was divorced twice.