May 27, 2014 at 9:22 am #57469
I have been in recovery from my eating disorder for 2 years now and I feel myself slipping . A big part of me really doesn’t care but a big part of my knows that it is wrong . help. Up don’t know what to doMay 27, 2014 at 11:59 am #57478MattParticipant
Congrats on the two years! That’s a lot of distance so far, keep going! Perhaps when you started your recovery, you found some activities to help with the stress? Have you done those? Sometimes we get pushed toward old coping habits when we feel some weight on our shoulders. Its a good time to stop pushing and go play. The inner child needs time to stretch her legs, needs some tender care and some laughter.
MattMay 28, 2014 at 7:48 pm #57603
Thank you so much Matt for your kind words. I’ve actually just started knitting and crocheting . That brings me some peace in tough times . But some days are just to hard . I find myself slipping into old habits and i have a hard time stopping myself 🙁May 29, 2014 at 6:40 am #57632MattParticipant
That is very normal, and its good that you have some quiet activities you enjoy. Consider that “slipping” is OK, it happens. Try not to, of course, but when you do, just do. Meaning, when you’re acting dysfunctional, don’t let it be “this is just what Lindsey does”, but rather “OK, what’s really here?” What does your body feel? What does it see? What does it hear? Just look, feel, smell, sense. Let it be information, a curious puzzle. Such as “OK, today I am doing this to myself. What is actually happening? What am I feeling?” This will help break the ruts, because when we pay attention to our actions and how the body actually feels when we act that way, the urge to do it again decreases.
Good luck on your recovery, and I hope you find the tender space of compassion for yourself. You deserve it!
MattMay 29, 2014 at 10:54 am #57645Marilyn Briant-RockmoreParticipant
I echo Matt’s congratulations – two years is a wonderful achievement. It is hard to change behaviors, perhaps because we do not fully realize that what we are doing is not being loving and kind to ourselves…Mistakes happen and it is important not to beat yourself up and make yourself wrong, try instead to love yourself for trying, forgive yourself for slipping and focus on doing what makes you feel good…
Love and peace,
MarilynMay 30, 2014 at 5:11 pm #57750
Thank you both . It’s just been a rough couple weeks. I just have so many different emotions going on at the same timeMay 31, 2014 at 2:27 pm #57780BenzRabbitParticipant
2 years is an achievement !
As you may know, in recovery, the best way is to take it one day at a time – do not think about anything further than each day – everything will work out ! I have lived long enough to know that it does – the only thing you need to do is trust yourself !
I pray angels guide you and keep you strong.
Listen to this one song by Josh Groban called ‘Don’t give up’ – it gave me strength and hope it does the same for you – here is the youtube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGLSk3AVcUU
GOD Bless !