Hello all, this is the first time I have ever written on an online forum like this one. My problem is that ever since I turned 20 years old I started becoming more emotional, especially around my period. Over the past 3 years I have dealt with a lot of emotional ups and downs. I have noticed that birth control usually makes it worse, so I cannot use it. I have also noticed that the worst downs are when I am in some sort of relationship with a guy. I generally get pretty insecure and I am tired of feeling that way.
Generally I consider myself a pretty happy individual. While my life has not been the hardest or the easiest I am blessed with loving friends and family. I am blessed with a good paying job and I have come a long way from where I started. For a 23 year old I feel very lucky and fortunate. I am even currently living in Europe where I get the chance to travel to so many amazing places! I am blessed with so much, but I just cannot feel any of my normal happiness when I am on my period. Today I struggled to feel good and I sat outside reading to try and get my mind of my sadness. Not only do I get sad though, but I can get so angry. I feel like these emotions should be there for a reason, but no matter how hard I try to find the reason there is none. No reason that makes sense at least, because when I am not on my period…I do not get sad or angry over the same things. I just want to cry and be hugged and told that everything is going to be okay, but I do not want to depend on anyone to help me feel better. I feel like that are a lot of strong and empowered women here, so maybe some of you could help me out. I have come to recently accept that I get emotional and that I feel things deeply…but what is next? How do I deal? Thank you in advance.