Hi. I really need help I’m struggling to let go and move on from my lady friend. We started of as friends and we were really good friends, we did almost everything together, spoke on the phone for hours. Every moment we could we spent it together. Then we started developing feelings for each other, I tried really hard to fight those feelings because I am Christian and it felt wrong to be in a lesbian relationship. But eventually I couldn’t fight those feelings anymore I was just in love with her and she was in love with me. We never really admitted to anyone that we were in a relationship but everyone could see it.
I fell so madly in love with her my whole life started to revolve around. She was so good to me but things started to go sour because of jealousy. We were both so jealous of each other’s friends and made us fight a lot to the point that it got physical. We tried to work things out but the fights kept continuing until she decided that she’s had enough and ended things.
She has moved on with her life and she is with someone else but I can’t forget about her. She blocked me but I always find ways to talk to her. I can see that she is no longer interested in me but I keep making a fool of myself and chasing after her. And she always just treats me like trash cause her new girlfriend is always with her. But I still keep going to her. I even pretended to be someone else just so I can chat to her and just talk to her every day cause when she knows it’s me she doesn’t respond.
I really want to let her go but it’s so hard. She is my love, she was my best friend and I miss her so very much. But holding on to her is really hurting yet I don’t know how to let her go. I’ve tried deleting her contacts and not communicating with her but because we live in the same area when I see her all those feelings come back and I start talking to her again hoping this time it will be different but it never is.
How do I let her go? I have no friends she was my everything and now that she is gone I really don’t know what to do with myself.