Hi,

I quit my job last month and left the city I was living in. I’d been planning on quitting for a while, as it was unfulfilling and making me physically ill. I also have a conditional offer to study a Master’s degree abroad later this year. During my last month there, I went on a few dates with a guy who I really liked. It was the first time in a long time I actually clicked with a date. He liked me too, it was just so typical we seemed to meet at the wrong time. I’ve never been in a long-term relationship and I keep torturing myself thinking I should’ve stayed around longer. I know I could meet someone else, but what if I don’t get that chance?

One factor in quitting at the time I did was because I wanted to be at home during Christmas with my family, now I’m thinking how ridiculous thatwas, when I could’ve  come back to visit any time.

One positive of leaving is that I am feeling better physically due to less stress.

However I do keep imagining that I’m with him, happy together and it’s killing me inside. I try to reassure myself that it might not have worked out anyway, he does have one or two flaws like me. I could’ve ended up leaving anyway for the Master’s degree. Circumstances did play a part in me leaving, and I know you have to look out for yourself.

I just can’t help thinking I’ve thrown away my only chance of love. I always brood and look back on the past, imagining what would have happened if I’d done things differently. I should be happy as I’m back home where there are more opportunities and people, but I can’t help thinking back to what might have been.

Any advice/ thoughts greatly appreciated thanks