I was in a relationship with my ex-fiance for five years and we lived together for four of those years. He called off our wedding and made the decision to separate after a difficult time in our lives (financial, health, and work issues). I felt heartbroken, abandoned, and betrayed.

It’s been two and a half years since our break-up and while I’m admittedly in a much healthier place in my life, there is a small part of me that still holds on to anger. I do not want to get back together with this person, but I’m having a hard time letting go because it wasn’t just a person I lost- it was a life. After our break-up I lost someone I considered to be my best friend. I lost mutual friends. I lost my dog in our separation. I lost the idea of a future that I thought we were actively building together (hence the wedding that he called off).

We have not talked in over a year, however we both recently attended a wedding of a mutual friend. We are both in new relationships and had our current significant others with us. We did not talk, we did not make eye contact, we literally acted like strangers.

How do I feel about this? Honestly, it felt like another part of me “let go” a little. I felt some relief. I had a moment to reflect on how I felt with his presence in the room: pretty content. I love my current boyfriend and feel safe and respected by him. My emotional and physical health has also slowly improved over the years since my break-up from my ex.

I was thinking tonight that there is one last thing to do. While it might seem obvious, I think I need to completely sever ties with my ex on social media and go as far as blocking him so there’s less temptation to see “check-up” when I’m feeling sad. Sometimes I still look at his social media pages or I’ll see him pop up on someone else’s page. I see pictures of him and his new girlfriend and think bitter, angry thoughts. Then I see pictures of his family and feel slightly sad and nostalgic.

So, I did it. I blocked him on social media and it feels like one more step toward letting go and reaching a point of forgiveness and not harboring anymore anger or resentment.