Dear Coruga,
It is possible that you are still in your process–and that, as such, there are intermediate steps to be made? Although it is true that following one’s dream may necessitate jumping in with all the risk that entails, it is also true that many decisions made in haste to not pan out. So often, our emotions tell us a situation is immediate. Sometimes emotions masquerade as intuition. Often, that which feels immediate is not necessarily so.
Rather than feeling like you must choose one or the other right now (or you passed or failed, leaped or gave up forever), is it possible for you to stay and save a bit more, even if it takes longer to reach your dreams?
What are the benefits/consequences of waiting? What are the benefits/consequences of not waiting?
I wish you well in your journey! Just decide each day for that day. I pray that you find peace and purpose wherever your feet land you.
Love, peace, health, happiness & hugs,
jani