Hi,

Honestly this is the first time I’ve ever posted my own topic but maybe I could use more ears and advice.
Life for me right now seems to be in a state of routine and I feel suffocated and trapped, but I feel like it’s my own fault for letting it get this way..

I go to school full-time, as a Public Health Major I love what I do but understandably the work load is intensive and I am often staying up into the wee hours of the night studying and doing homework.

I am at a job, that I’ve been at for a year and seven months, while I get paid it seems like the job responsibilities are added and piled on to my plate even when the plate is already full. And if things
are not done by the time a higher authority needs it, it often seems like I’m incompetent or that I’m not doing things fast enough for them to continue their day of work making me the subject of scrutiny for the day.

My parents, are another story. My mother had finished a battle of breast cancer (luckily in remission) only
to discover that my father was having an affair behind her back for three years, which included the time she
was in the hospital. In,fact he had left her in my sibling’s and I’s care in order to go see the woman. While they are working things out, my mother still feels necessary to bad-mouth my father when he’s not around regarding it and my father would rather I stay with my mother even if I’m busy with other things.

The two things that kept me support are now both gone. My dog of 10 years had passed away naturally in his sleep and my boyfriend of 2 years decided that we were too incompatible.

I feel like I am at a prison crossroads, where do I even start?