Hi Roary,
You’ve reached an important step in what I hope will be a journey of self discovery. You have reached the first step of understanding that life is suffering. The Buddha pointed this out in the four noble truths.
Life is suffering is the first
theres reason for this suffering
there’s a solution to this suffering
The solution to suffering is the eightfold path.
I hope you take the time to research this and look for more insights into your suffering. I have followed this blog for years and although it’s contributing members give good personal advice, I have yet to see anyone point to the teachings of the Buddha.
May you have the will to do the work to end your suffering.