as days go by, I realize that I have been living in a lie for the past 3 years. I love my boyfriend who I live with but he doesn’t feel the same. He loves me as a person and I am his best friend but that’s it. He has said “I don’t know” many times in our relationship when it came time to take the next step.
marriage is a contentious issue between us. I love him so much and I can spend the rest of my life with him. He doesn’t feel the same. He says every time he thinks of marrying me, he sees red flags and it’s not a good thing.
I am away visiting my family right now and this time the conversation has happened over the phone. I go back to the apartment we share together on Sunday. He are supposed to dicusss this but in my heart I know that we are over. He doesn’t love me the way I love him and that’s it.
I met him when I was 32 and I didn’t think love could be this easy. We laugh, we make love and we are ourselves with each other. I am not looking for anyone to give me insight into his brain but how can he be in such a different place as I when it comes to our relationship? We have one of the best relationships I have ever experience or seen. Can I be so naive that I dreamed all this up? Are all the days together a lie?
any insight on this will help me. I can’t sleep or eat as I am about to lose my soulmate.