I hope writing everything down and getting your thoughts ‘off your chest’ was helpful? It’s great to that you are learning to manage your anxiety through meditation and writing.
I am wondering about your situation with your study skills… You mentioned that you haven’t had to work hard to get good grades and you fear that luck may be coming to an end.
Do you feel that you have relied on natural ability as opposed to studying? Do you have any study skills?
I think there is a stage in life where everyone has to work hard to develop some skills and knowledge. When you feel confident in your ability to overcome these new challenges your anxiety should ease.
As a tutor, it is important to remember that often we learn from making mistakes. So even if mistakes are made that is okay and part of the learning process. Every single person in the world makes mistakes!