wednesday, i took a pre-calc quiz and i got a 93 on it. i am learning about the law of sines and cosines in pre-calc and will have a test on ch. 6 on tues. andrew is helping me understand the law of sines and how to solve triangles. he helped me on wednesday also to figure out when the triangle would be side, side, angle (ssa) and use the law of sines and that it would be two triangles since there are possibilities for a since you only know the length of one angle. i was also helping my friend, francine with her algebra hw in the library. andrew is also helping me figure out centripetal motion of a pendulum in physics honors. anyway, these two subjects are somewhat difficult, but i enjoy them. thurs. andrew, francine and i were in the library making duct-tape purses and also my friend ray wright was also there and he also explained the motion of a pendulum as well. ray wright also does track with me and we are both throwers. dave is also helping with physics honors and literature as well. dave is very encouraging and he always tells me not to worry because i’m smart and i will understand it soon. thurs. i told dave today that sometimes i feel inadequate to him b/c he always seems more confident and smarter than i am and dave was great, he told me that i was special as well and that i also had talents in science and that i was smart as well. my lunch buddy, steve and i were laughing yesterday about pre-calc and the law of sines and we were playing around with the word problems and i had fun. the coolest thing is that the earth exerts an equal and opposite centripetal force on the sun as the sun exerts a centripetal force on the earth. since the sun is more massive, its gravitational pull is stronger and its centripetal force keeps earth in orbit, while since earth is less massive than the sun and it exerts a equal and opposite centripetal force to keep itself in orbit. centripetal force is the force that is applied to keep an object in circular motion. i was doing my pre-calc hw at lunch and my special friend was telling me that i should take a break for a while since he always sees me doing hw at lunch. i think i got annoyed at a pre-calc problem and i felt dumb and my special friend must have seen the expression on my face b/c he turned to his friends and said “look at her, she always works so hard. isn’t she the smartest person you know?” then he gave me a goofy smile that made me laugh. then while his friends were laughing as well, he came over and asked if i was okay, he told me “don’t worry, you’re perfect the way you are and you are smart, you’ll figure it out.” anyway after physics honors, dave was great and he was also quite entertaining when he pretended he was swinging a pendulum fast enough to go in between the slots of my physics book. also my special friend saw i was a bit stressed and he tried to cheer me up, he told me the story about how he tried to move his school notes on the top shelf and he didn’t notice the shelf above with clothes was a bit loose, so the clothes ended falling on him. also he also knows i can be shy at times so he told me that i should start living life more and have fun and stop being so serious at times. when he said this he quoted a line from “cake by the ocean” which is a song and said ‘you’re moving so carefully, let’s start living dangerously.’ i love my special friend for the way he makes me lose myself, all my limitations and all the thoughts that hold me back until all i see is and feel is divine spiritual love and the beauty of what it is to be alive. when i told him that i felt inadequate at time compared to andrew or dave, he would always say that i was much more than both of them, that i was good enough and perfect the way i was. my special friend is quite laid back and he hates competition and sometimes when i team up with dave and andrew or compete with them, he feels left out and he also thinks it makes me less happier with myself b/c i’m always finding ways to do well in school. sometimes when i’m talking about school with andrew or dave, i hear my special friend talk to his friends in the background and he says “can’t she see that she is already smarter than she thinks she is? can’t she she is perfect the way she is? can’t she that no matter what that i’m the one who makes her happiest because i love her for who she is and not the person she tries to be by competing?” i feel bad for my special friend because i have andrew, dave, steve and some of my track buddies including sebastian and ray who both are throwers and they help me a lot and sometimes my special friend feels left out. i usually always have my mind on some school work or community service project and often am around andrew and dave since they help and share the same classes and interests especially in science and nature and first aid. there are times when i can’t even look at him or smile at him b/c i’m busy thinking a project or school work. i’m glad he is here for me, but sometimes i feel guilty when i don’t acknowledge him. i am also studying for the ap tests in may so i have been studying as well. i think he really wants to be my boyfriend, but i think it would be too complicated right now