Dear Kylin:

You are using a few methods to manage your anxiety and they are all good methods. What I understand is, these methods have not been enough. Keep practicing them.

In addition to the aim of managing or coping with anxiety, insight into the origins of this excessive, ongoing fear can help. it is not easy to pay attention and look into our fear. But the cost of not doing so is that we keep being afraid.

is there a possibility for you to attend competent psychotherapy for that purpose? Have you already? If so, what was the experience like for you?

In high school you were bullied and looked down on. Was that the first time you were bullied? How was your home life like in elementary/ primary school and on to high school?

anita