Hi anita,

I don’t feel that this is a sign to act on this dream. We haven’t been in touch for many years, and even if we were, and even if there were no obstacles between us now, it still wouldn’t be right. I have been in touch with my ex (his brother) during these years, as friends, seeing each other once a year, and every time he made suggestions of getting back together. He once told me that while he was abroad, he realized how important I was to him. And to me, there is no going back, because the end of our relationship was a relief. He is still single. And his brother, he is in a committed relationship for the first time in many years and they look happy. I think there is a message for myself only, but don’t know what.
Yes, there is currently a gap in my life, but I have had so many experiences and was even rejected not long ago by another person. I had feelings for him but still I am glad it happened that way because I know he is not right for me. I had vivid dreams about him for a while until processing my experiences with him, then they stopped. Then I went to the mountain this weekend and had a brief meeting with a guy I could like. Then went to bed and had this strange dream.
The other surprise for me comes from the fact that, this person has a very impressive presence. Many people around him have respect for him, and many girls liked him. He is tall and attractive. But he does nothing to look like an authority, it is just his natural aura. And during all the years while I secretly had feelings for him, I was at the same time scared and respected by his judgement every time he asked me a question. Now after that dream I remembered that he actually looked for many ways to talk to me. I was more silent then, and when there were more people, he always asked, what was my opinion on this, what was my opinion on that. I have grown since then and learned to assert myself better and feel more confident. Looking back to these days I see situations in a different way and can even see that he somehow recognized me and my potential beneath the surface of silence and modesty. This is something that does not occur often even today as people just see my physical appearance and don’t even see my true self. So another part of my surprise is to discover that, all these years I have been respected by him, he actually felt respect for me too, which at least back then was a big deal…