so many people see the negatives of life that they fail to see the beauty and the effortlessness life really is. living my life isn’t hard anymore, i know whatever road i take i will be lead home. also when andrew, steve, dave and my special friend and i go our separate ways after senior year, i have faith i will be fine. i will miss them and hope we will stay friends, but i will accept the fact if we drift apart and still continue to live with all the values they’ve taught me. also thanks a lot anita for helping me renew my creative spark again, for always being here and understanding, it is a true divine blessing to know someone like you;) i think i have had many blessings in life and one of them is meeting you, anita;)you are a very compassionate and wise friend;) i think if i hadn’t met the people i met in my life, i wouldn’t have been the same person i am today, one who sees the beauty of life and enjoys acquiring wisdom and helping others. i truly believe everything happens for a reason and life is a miracle of opportunities. i have become more detached from others in my surroundings and have often tried to help others with their stress. i realize that i may never be the smartest person, the most athletic, the most wealthy or the most whatever; but no of that matters to me. what matters is that i am learning to be at peace with myself, to truly appreciate everything in life as a journey and am helping others as well. it doesn’t matter how much you have in life if you aren’t happy within or there are going to be faults that perturb you, what matters is the happiness, the love you can cultivate for yourself and the world that will last forever. some people like my parents and some of the customers at my restaurant find me strange and say i have my head in the clouds because they think it is impossible to live the way i do and accept everything as it is. but it’s not hard and accepting things is easier than fighting them and causing more stress, accept them, acknowledge them and use them to grow. as the buddha says “acknowledge your suffering, don’t let your wants and imperfections define who you are, that only causes suffering. look within yourself and see your inner talents and detach yourself from the world of suffering. be free and end suffering.” when some people tell me that they are depressed, i feel bad for them (i’m empathetic), but i won’t let their depression get to me and i will find ways to help them get through it or just shield myself bubble of light and just wait. too many people miss the opportunities in life because they see what they lack or the things that could be better. here is a poem about living your dreams, being yourself and truly appreciating the wonders of life:

Be yourself

You are only confined by the walls you build yourself

You are what you love, not what loves you

Think of all the things you could be

You are not held back by who you think you are, but by who you think you are not

Confidence is not “They will like me”

Confidence is “I’ll be fine if they don’t”

How much of yourself is truly you if you keep conforming to your limitations and the ideals society sets for you?

How much are you truly living if you confine yourself in fear, afraid to even try, watching life pass you by?

Who do you truly want to be in life?

Don’t let others or the past define who you are

Let the past make you better not bitter

Learn from your mistakes and don’t be anxious for the future

Worrying doesn’t take away troubles, it takes away your peace

Sometimes the wrong choices take us to the right places

Sometimes you may have to choose your own path different from others

Just because you are stuck in mud doesn’t mean you can’t still see the stars

If your garden starts growing weeds, accept the negatives and let them go

You may have to take a chance and make a choice to uproot yourself and head in a new direction or your life will never change

When things in life don’t add (+) up, start subtracting (-)