Hey afraidofeveryone

Making mistakes is part of life and doing things you regret is part of living. Feeling bad about them is good to a certain extent – to stop you from continuing to make those mistakes and continuing to do the same things that you regret. It is only not learning and stopping those behaviors that is the real failure.

If when you drink you have blackouts and do things you wouldn’t consider doing as a ‘normal drunk person’ then that is really unsafe and scary. And you are realizing you just aren’t able to drink like some other people. Its just something that makes you uniquely you, a part of your make up, like having an allergy or an intolerance, that you have to work with in order to have a great life.

Congrats on your relationship, he sounds like a balanced guy not freaking out about something you may or may not have done and well done for being honest with him about it. That cant have been easy.

Forgive yourself for getting into that situation (which I think might be why you can’t get over it because its not about the maybe kissing someone) and don’t put yourself in that situation again, which I recognise might be hard if there is a big drinking culture where you are but for your own safety and your relationship its not worth it for a night you can’t even remember!

hugs
Eris