Dear iamfreee:

I wonder why you chose the name I-am-free- could it be that you want to be free of your attachment to your former best friend (former, because she is no longer)? And be free of the jealousy and longings and distress in that attachment?

If so, then relax into the reality that she is not your best friend. Maybe she was at one time, but not anymore. And there is no reason to believe that she will be again. If you accept this, you will stop hoping for a repeat of the past. As close as the two of you were at one time, that is now in the past. It is over.

Can you do that, relax into this reality, let it be and no longer try to change it?

anita