@Authorgirl Remaining single is out of the question. Having a loving relationship and having someone else in my life is the only thing that matters. I should be able to attract a romantic partner. Virtually everyone else can, so why can’t I? Lots of people who are far more messed up than I am are able be desirable enough to attract a loved one. Why can’t I?

I’m going to be 31 this month. I’ve been trying to put the pieces of my wretched existence together for nearly 25 years. I do not expect I’ll succeed anytime soon. Heh, at this point it’s like trying to put together a broken vase from a pile of talc someone else handed you. You know nothing about what the vase is supposed to look like, or if it even was a vase to begin with. Also the feat is impossible.

Also I’m a man. I don’t know if you were using a woman as an example or empathizing with me under the assumption I was a woman but I am very much a man. I’m also aware, through doing numerous searches on the web, that this is not a problem you see posted me men. For every 1 post by a man asking why he’s unlovable there are hundreds more by women. This is not a problem men like to openly share or seek help for…. or maybe it’s not a problem they tend to have. Either way it makes me feel even worse because, in my mind, it makes me feel as through my current problem is that much more atypical. That there’s something deeply and severely wrong with me.

For me being single is a death sentence.

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