Indigobb,

I do not know whether she will come back, but in my experience I do know that life has a funny way of bringing people back into your life, in unexpected ways. However, you do have a bit of control over your own life, you can chose to be open and provide her opportunities to be involved in your life. Maybe she will return, maybe she will not, in that case it will be her choice. There is a quote “that was the first thing I had to learn about her, and maybe the hardest I’ve ever learned about anything–that
she is her own, and what she gives me is of her choosing, and the more precious because of it. Sometimes a
butterfly will come to sit in your open palm, but if you close your hand, one way or the other, it–and its choice to
be there–are gone.”
This may be hard to swallow that if she chooses not to return, but you shouldn’t regret anything, its not in your control.

I think you may have let her go from your life, you are still emotionally attached to the idea of being with her in the future. You can still love her and let go of the attachment of what you could have with her. While you “wait for her”, live like you are not waiting, walk down your own path, follow your dreams, learn to be happy. If she does join you later in life, you will have a better life to share with her.

I am going through something similar, so I hope this is helpful for you.

I wish you luck!

Laure