here is a poem i’ve written about how sometimes the worldly critics and my inner bully makes me value myself less

Never Enough (mistakes you always see)

Everything I do, it is never good enough to you
You see my mistakes more than my accomplishments
Every step I take is another mistake to you
In your eyes, I never added up to my oldest sibling
You judged me for my grades
You judged me for my fears
All this judging has made me the way I am
Past betrayals and your hurtful words sink deep
The scars from old wounds open again
Each time you assail me
Can’t you see I try so hard?
I’m sensitive, but you don’t know.
I used to be the outgoing, carefree person
But after all the teasing and bullying and you’re rude remarks
I’ve had difficulty grasping it again
I get better with time
But the wounds you’ve inflicted will stay with me
Staring at my reflection, I see the negative
I ask myself “How can I ever be good enough?”
I believe I’m not good enough for my crush
I believe every will judge me by what they see and not for who I am
Every day I pray for you to take me as I am
You always see that I’m never enough
Can’t you see you’re reluctant acceptance is influencing me
I won’t let barriers hold me down though
Say what you want
You’re not going to win this time
Take what you want
But just leave me alive
My self-esteem needs to be restored
When the time comes, I will be there for those who care for me
They have helped me stay alive
I’m no beauty physically covered in acne
I have spiritual wisdom, yet you turn you’re head away