Dear Anita,

Thank you so much for the clarification and I deeply apologize for the misinterpretation. I understood from your previous post, that, communication is vital and people have to communicate properly so that the other person does not feel left out, that’s the way I understood and I felt, if we communicate, we can do anything, since, we are keeping the other person informed. It was bad on my part to understood what you said in this way…

Yes, Now I understood, I have a way to change things around and cease contact with her and take care of myself.. Hope it works, without any major setbacks on my side.. I don’t believe in God as such, but still request all of you who has helped me here to understand, what it is, to pray for me…

I think, I need to better engage myself, in other ways to improve myself and to divert my attention from her for my own self improvement.. but still, once in a while, this rage inside me, springs up as to demand answers from her and not to let her go off the hook, since I feel let down, and whatever I did for her was not reciprocated in the same way, which was not possible in reality, at least for her in her own terms and way…

Hoping for the best!!! but, honestly, I’m a person, who never accepts wrong doing from people close to me, I feel, i got more attached to the concept unknowingly, u break it,,u fix it.. but still i remove them from my life completely or isolate myself from them, which i’m not able to do this with her… from where do you think, these thoughts are stemming from? may be inherited from my strict father, that no mistakes are allowed, whatsoever and if you do, you will be punished in some way, which I might find suitable??

this is the vicious cycle, it was talking about, punish them, and then go back to them, feeling either pity for them or just because, i’m feeling lonely and depressed, losing their presence in my life…