Hi Pete,

I really don’t think that an ideal work scenario could possibly exist. Maybe a desired one, yes 🙂

You know, I have been working since I finished high school, maybe 10 years, and always had it well managed with people and situations unlike the last 3 years. Maybe they happened to teach me something, I have been thinking a lot.

I needed to keep my focus for a while on the past to figure out what happened exactly, and why, to find out the reason behind all this. I needed to have a clear picture in my head about my history so that I have my conscious in peace and acknowledge my mistakes, understanding exactly what they were so that I can fix them. I couldn’t have a clear future if my recent past was a blurry mess of negativity. Stating what exactly happened brought structure, and helped me extract the lessons from that experience.

But you are right, right now my focus is more on what I would like to happen some time better in the near future. I would like to make my way through, see if I can repair the damages, save what is still viable and leave behind the unfixable. I used to be very constructive and positive person before these things happened, then I just shut myself down and switched to survival mode… I would like to go back to my previous constructive self.

Get back to my former company, get a steady income, rebuild my life piece by piece. Start my own project in the spare time. This time making some savings, fix my debt. Make new friends, have a new relationship. Study that thing that I put off for years.