“At first I thought it was a coping method to help me deal with the sad feelings, but now it’s helping me put off facing the reality that’s so scary”
I can sooo relate! I feel like I am hibernated and just feeding myself with those fantasies but going nowhere. And I don’t even know what the truth is. I am so used to just “sucking it up” and forcing myself to do the next step, smiling, saying that I am all fine, pretending. I am losing sense of reality, I am not sure what I really feel. I see no choice but to start fresh – being honest here and now and see what happens. I am so done with manipulating, hiding and pretending. I am from really religious and anti-art family so I have alvays been hiding with my art and thoughts. I have always just wanted to run away and be myself. Unfortunately, so far I am just doing it in my head and just losing touch with the real world.