about the revenge part, i mean actual revenge if someone hurt another person, but the revenge should just and merciful. american prisons have been found to be inhumane to their prisoners and 90% of the prisoners released are sent back within a year or two. but in norway, they have counseling for prisoners to figure out what went wrong with their life, they have schools where the prisoners can learn how to become part of society again and when the prisoners are released their is a 20% chance they will go back to prison in the next year or two. darkness is not bad or evil as some may think. in fact if none of the colors were reflected back to our eyes (in other words all the colors were absorbed), we would see that object as black. the dark things often feel hot in the summer b/c they are absorbing light. so we don’t need to fear the dark, we need to think of it as “the color which absorbs all light and tries to make itself radiate warmth by absorbing that light.” in fact, in the ancient times esp. in egypt many shamans believed in wearing white to a funeral b/c they could see that a person who had crossed over had a white aura since all the color had been reflected as their soul left their body. in the old days, black used to represent the universe before it was born and light came around. about the marshmallow disguised as a cactus thing, i was thinking that everyone is like that. we are all afraid of being hurt so we try to make ourselves unapproachable by putting spines on ourselves. i even threw a picture of a marshmallow with spines for fun. we often don’t see our similarities on the inside. people are often being defensive covering themselves up with spines to protect the marshmallow within them. also anger when it doesn’t go out of control is okay. most of the time when i’m angry, i want to be alone so i don’t do something i regret. i’ll burn off steam by running, dancing, working out or writing poetry. i don’t lash out in anger at other people. i think b/c i’ve been bullied and had a hard life, i know how pain affects people so when i’m angry i don’t want to hurt anyone so i isolate myself from them. being bullied has taught me about compassion and how not to inflict pain on others and to be merciful when dealing out justice. i am not like my parents who when they are angry, they hold grudges and keep going on and on trying to make the flame go higher. when the flame within me ignites, i throw water and let the smoke of forgiveness rise. from the ashes of my troubles i rise again. i think these words could be another poem. possibly called “Soul Fire.” it will be about strength without aggression, being able to rise from the flames a better person instead of being caught up in them and being burned every time. i am a healer and i carry the sadness and fear of others which i will work on letting go. in this way, i act like an earth angel. for as long as my heart is beating, my wings keep fluttering and i fly above this world watching for anyone who needs my help.