Dear kennisha:

You are not spoiled. You are not helping yourself because you need help first. You need help so to learn how to help yourself. I am sure you did your best to help yourself so far, again and again. But you are stuck in circles because after all your efforts, you find yourself unmotivated and depressed, again and again.

The reason you mentioned your PTSD and depression in the very beginning of your original post is that these are very, very significant to Every part of your life, including your schooling. And so, you still need help for your PTSD, still need to gain insight, understand more, learn skills to endure distress, keep as calm as you can be… and learn, over time, who you are, what you value and how to live your own life.

Did you attend psychotherapy before? If you did, what did you learn?

anita