Maybe you are right Anita. I had a strong belief system. It’s shattered now and I am so confused.
I just want normalcy to return, the way I was before all kind of shitty stuff entered my life. I just want to enjoy simple pleasures, love myself and others. I want some kind of normalcy in my life. I am getting frustrated with regrets, things not turning out the way I wanted it to, my efforts not being recognised, me not able to meet my own expectations, people pleasing. I ve had enough! I want to forget everything, be reborn and just have fun:) I want to let go..Arrgghh. I feel I am the only one stopping myself. Yikes!