Dear, Laurie..

I have some friends who have been clean for more than a decade before they find themselves fall into the same hole again. This cycle just got me thinking, are we, addict, cursed or something? Because no one (or really barely) seem to be able to got out of this substance abuse alive and never touched it again. Most of the people I know, and you as well, find themselves relapse and sometimes getting even worse than before.

I can’t help but feeling terrified of my future. Say I can be clean again for some period of my life, just to find myself live the same chaos again years from now. Or, if I’m lucky enough, I’d find myself dead before that happen again.

Would you give me some insights about how could this doesn’t make you want to give up? Aren’t you tired of that deadly cycle of life, Laurie?

Please enlighten me, as you are a survivor.

Dee.