Thank you 🙂
I believe feelings work in the same way though… I also used to get angry, more so at the time when triggered by him. This is because I was unable to express my emotions to him so took it out in anger, this is generally what anger is – unexpressed emotions. But when you really think about it, a story or something that has happened triggers a feeling, doesn’t it? Could you explain a situation whereby you get triggered? What the you doing? Are you thinking about something having a conversation about something? Does it just come from nowhere, but truly nowhere? No previous thoughts or texts or calls from him? Pain at yourself, feeling like you’re a failure etc? Because that comes from the lack of self compassion & love.. again working on this will help those feeling subside.
Can I ask how long this situation has been going on/ when you broke up?

Meditation is hard in hard times I get that because we almost don’t want to feel, anymore than we already do, any negative emotions or feelings.. but this is part of acceptance & realising we need to go through this to heal from it. Remember.. What you resist persists.
I’m trying to find the acceptance thing I mentioned but it’s on my old phone, but I think I have kind of covered it. Just accept how you feel.. don’t try too battle with it, see it almost as a friend, nothing to be afraid of, the less you feed it the more it fades