Thank you for your insightful comment Sarah.

Someone on another forum told me to do the same half a year ago, and that was actually part of what made me stay with her then too. But I seem to have a hard time implementing it in my life, since I have had such a release of anxiety after admitting to myself that I had been hiding my lack of (shallow) physical attraction from her for so long. I have been able to have great sex with her and really, really enjoying her and us physically because I can focus on her personality. But doesn’t this surge of anxiety coming forth after telling her that I’ve been feeling guilt from feeling lack of attraction for her aswell as hiding it from her (plus the fact that I’ve realized that I’ve spent a whole lot of time, emotion and energyhiding my lack of physical attraction from her) mean something?

I don’t know how to do the thing that you are describing fully, and even though I’ve been able to enjoy our time together since I asked this question the last time, this sense of not being fully attracted has always been lurking in the background. How did you go about it and do you have any advice on how to do so overall?