I’m not sure how to exactly start. I’m 33 year old woman , software professional, earning sufficient, unmarried or not in any kind of relationship. I graduated around 12 years back and have completed 10+ years in my organization. I enjoyed working here when was assigned to good and challenging projects. off course this was not the case through out my work tenure, there were times when i was assigned to some not so good projects and was bored working on those. I’m currently on bench – term in IT- with no projects or work assigned and just attending few trainings and studying randomly. This empty time is building a feeling in me that my IT career is about to end. (I was being competent till this time, if rated on scale of 5 – 4 rater for max of the time). Trends in IT are changing, technologies changes. Though i’m attending different training i’m not able to focus on it the random thoughts like will this study be useful keeps me distracting from it.

I have many more things to get distracted too anyway. Being Indian girl, unmarried till the age of 33 is just not acceptable in society and off course not much in family too. Struggling on that front too. I had no intentions of being unmarried till this age infact as per the Indian norms my parents keeps suggesting many matrimonial proposals. But nothing worked out till date, which ultimately affected my relationships with my parents. It’s little strained. I could never confidently go ahead with any person in spite of knowing that the proposal suggested is good.

I have few fiends who are always ready to help me out to open up or to solve my issues, but I can’t share anything with them freely. Feeling of unnecessarily bothering them keeps me away from sharing. I have become conscious about not sounding negative.

Living a monotonous life since last 10 + years, have no changes, can not dare to take a trip to my dream destinations too.

Many issues not to sure how to fix those, want some sorted, good and positive change.