Dear Newlifestartsnow:

So no information for me in regard to what you actually told her.

You wrote that what hurts so much is that you did so much for her, and you thought you were being the best friend you could be, and, for her, you were the worst friend.

First, during the two years of your friendship, she probably thought at different times that you were a good friend, and that may be why she continued the friendship. Her expressed emotions when she ended the friendship were true to the time of the ending of it, and, I suppose that is how she felt at times prior. But not the whole time.

You asked: if you were such a bad friend, why did she stick around? In general, some people stick around very abusive people, keep coming back to the abuse. Sticking around in a relationship is not an indication that it is a healthy or beneficial relationship.

You did a lot for her, you wrote. If, and I mean, IF you were also abusive to her at times, the abuse cancels your good deeds.

I noticed your new username: New life starts now. I used to want a new life for myself to start, many times. I learned that the only way to start a new life is to learn from the old life. And so, I hope you find a way to learn something valuable and true from this ended friendship, so to benefit yourself, and indeed, make a new beginning.

anita