Hi Shawn,

Out of the various people’s stories I have read, you seem to be the one that is gifted. Going by your ability to do well in school without much effort and progressing to move out finish college and get a decent job are all things that other poeple wished they had. The issue here seems to be that the relationship between you and your mother isn’t great and it is possible that her problems with motivation and self belief have, possibly over years, impacted your motivation. Despite the fact that you have strong reasons to be progressing, as you’re very able, your main authority figure, in the absence of your father, is devaluing you, could it be that over the years this has had the adverse efffect and depression you feel? What you must remember is that she suffers from loss and possible regret and that being compassionate towards her and her suffering can bring about peace to your mind.

You need to motivate yourself to move forward, find happiness and try and reignite the light you have within. Also remember that everything in life is impermanent and that nothing lasts forever including your problems. If you think you’re talentless or depressed, just look on this forum and know that what your experiences can teach you can also help other people in worse circumstances.

If someone doesn’t appreciate your worth, it doesn’t mean your worthis any less valuable.

Peace to you.

Jahrin