Hello PearceHawk,

I very much agree with your sentiments. I know I have some very negative personality traits and I am trying to address them. I accept I have got faults and flaws.

My main problem is my deep distrust of organized religion. Even though I am an active church organist, I have misgivings and doubts about it all. This mainly stems from contact with the clergy. As I have said before, I think for a good deal of them the priesthood was simply a career choice and nothing more. It wasn’t a ‘calling’, and in fact my parish priest openly admitted that he didn’t know why he had become a priest and wondered if he had made the right choice. Then there was the priest whose church I used to play at occasionally for funerals and weddings. He mysteriously disappeared for several weeks, and we only discovered later that he had been viewing child pornography on his computer. To think that I had often spoke to this individual and helped him out on the altar makes my flesh crawl.  And now the latest experience with priests has only cemented my deep suspicion of them. I have been experiencing strange things, things that cannot be explained rationally. So I had hoped that the Catholic Church would help, but the exorcist I spoke to did not want to do his job and told me to see my GP. This is no good to me, for I know I would be putting myself through unneccesary medical tests. I think that in the end I will just walk away from religion altogether. These people are a disgrace.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser