wow makes sense.. it hurts so bad to realize and to believe but you’re right.  He is very hard headed and since he made this move I don’t think he would just let go of it and come back, even if he did miss me..  wow thats a new eye opener because thats exactly what I never thought.. Immaturity, I just thought maybe he was better than that.  With everything we have been through, he just seems so mature but sometimes you just don’t realize.. wow.  I want him back so bad, I want the love back.. or I just want to be able to move on. it feels so hard, and so confusing.  Thank you for replying and showing me this perspective.  He needs time to grow himself.

I guess the hope just lingers within me,  before we became serious for real, we would go on and off as best friends and then randomly talking and falling for each other.  We were young so some stupid stuff would happen and then we would stop talking for months, then some weird stuff in life would help us drift back to each other…. I guess I just think that may happen.  The love is so fresh in me, I just have so much hope… I have to let go of that.