Hello Mia,

Thank you for your kind words. What you are saying is correct but it can be easier said than done sometimes. As you probably know the “chattering monkey” you alluded to can be very persuasive and when you make as many bad choices as i seem to have made then the chattering very quickly becomes a noise heard above all others. I have been listening to some self help videos the past day and have been exercising, which is something that always levels me up, but the future terrifies me, mostly due to the fact that i seem to choose the wrong way. I am terrified of losing my home and my kids, my wife and i are pretty much strangers thanks to the events of the past year at work, and i just do not want to keep going. I do wonder if i am meant to be “normal” and also if i am really cut out for all of this? It’s strange that something that is gone can still seem so fresh and something that has not yet happened can seem so awful?