Hi Eliana,
I can understand the pain that you went through…trying to stay sane in a chaotic, toxic environment is never easy, especially during the formative years of childhood and adolescence. You strike me as a wise, caring and loving lady…I wish you happiness and fulfillment in all your relationships.
“Cliques”…what is exactly up with them? Come to think of it, when I was friends with each of these girls individually everything was going fine. However, suddenly these girls decided to make friends with one another, forming a sort of clique, and there came a day that they felt this need to, as you said, gang up on me.
I agree that having no family member around results in you feeling alone, which then results in you lowering your standards when it comes to picking friends.
Having moved to a big city from a relatively small one, I had to leave all my family members as well as my old, “healthy” friends behind, which caused an extreme sense of loneliness. However, I have come to realize it’s much better to be alone than with a wrong, abusive group.
Thank you for the book recommendations! I especially like the title of the first one. I’ll go search for them.
Mary
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