Dear Lisa:

Underneath your question: “what did they do to deserve that and what did I do to deserve to be alone?”, there is a belief in justice, in people being rewarded for good behavior and punished for bad behavior.

For there to be justice, there has to be someone observing the lives of many millions of people, recording their good deeds and their bad deeds and then proceeding to coordinate events so to punish the doers of bad deeds and reward the doers of good deeds.

If that was the case, then your frustration is understandable: how is it that those who bullied you have families while their victim is Alone?

In reality there is justice sometimes, when there is someone administering it: in school it is a teacher; in the criminal system, it is a judge or a jury. 

But otherwise who is it that administers justice? Who is giving us tests and grading us (as teachers do) and who is it that reviews evidence for or against us (as judges or juries do)?

If there is no one doing this job, then there is no justice.

Make your beliefs, Lisa, congruent with reality and your mental health will benefit.

anita