Victoria,
Being with our tribe where they get us is something most of us yearn for especially for people who grew up feeling that they don’t belong.  I can identify with that.

It sounds like you are highly sensory.  I encourage you to nurture that part of you by finding places and ways to bring that to your life.

In my experience I know that I am not alone for my yearning for community.  I have found that there are many people who yearn for that.  I see that from the MeetUp groups/meetings that are in my area.  You may want to explore that if you have access to those groups.  There is a group called “Highly Sensitive People” here that would seem to fit someone like you.  There are outdoor/hiking groups for those who like being out in Nature which seems that you enjoy.  There is group solely focused on authenticity.  There are meditation groups abound here as well.

Take care,
Mark