Dear Anita,

Thank you 🙂 I am currently sorting things out with the agency via email – which I am continuing to do tomorrow. Move in date – March 31st. I let my current housemate know that I was looking to move out, and asked her to not have her friend round until I moved out. She apologised and said she was going to stop. I haven’t seen her the past few days.

In terms of the reality question – Yes, tables have different purposes – but what I meant was, what if someone saw someone being violently attacked upon a table? Then I’m sure that this would skew their vision of tables (whether consciously or unconsciously). compared to someone who had never seen such a thing. I feel like this is the case with me, for so long my entire vision of the world – in particular houses, and kitchens, has been subconsciously negative because I saw so much, and experienced, so much abuse in them etc.

I think it’s important to recognise this. It’s taken me years to realise that it wasn’t necessarily being around people that brought on my anxiety, it was the associations that happened in my mind when I was around those people. Recognising this has given me a sense of power over my past – as it isn’t necessarily the present that is making me feel fear, just the associations that I have with the past.

In terms of your question – yes, 100%. The reality is in our minds. Because for that person, that is what is happening in their reality.

For some reason, their mind sees the table as an elephant, and it’s their mind that is torturing them, not the table…. Same can be said when I had a fear of leaving the house – seeing the outside as a threat, whereas the threat is only in my mind. Now I see the outside, simply just as outside.

Not sure if you’ve ever seen the image of two people sat on a bus. One is sat one side, looking sad and looking out the window and seeing sadness and bleakness. On the other side, another person is looking out the window and seeing happiness and sunshine. A good message that what we see in the world, and what we attract, is dependent on what our mind allows us to see.

Cat