Thank you for your feedback. I appreciate it. It will be a long process and I”m aware that damage has been done on my mental health considering I do have anxiety attacks quite often now but I also know that this pain won”t last forever even though right now it might seem like it but I tend to comfort myself with knowing that I”m not the first and the last person to go through a break up. It”s just the feeling of not being good enough that kills me… As he was pushing further away I did more and more to prove my worth.. flew his mom to Europe cause he hasn”t seen her in 2 years, his auntie and cousins.. So I kinda feel like if someone doesn”t appreciate me doing so many things… what”s the point of even trying another relationship?  but I do have to work on myself and focus on myself. I”m 26 and sometimes I have thoughts of “what if I end up alone” or “what if no one will find me attractive anymore” .. I go back and forward with my thoughts so yes.. I have a long way to go. But… I got this 🙂