@Anita thanks for replying. The girl I like said it because of my ability to suppress emotions and remain calm and make rational choices during stressful situations. That particular day I was a Keyholder at work and we had a lot of call-offs and I was the only manager in the store (I take work seriously so I normally didn’t call-off), everything was really crazy because we didn’t have enough people to complete all the tasks. Due to the fact that I stayed calm and kept the store in order, she said “Nothing gets to Ash, he’s cool as a cucumber”.

@Nextsteps Thanks for the advice. I studied many different religions and cultures over the years, tried my luck with learning new languages and teaching English as well, it all helped for awhile but, I don’t know, it didn’t feel satisfying. For now all I’m doing is working, no hobbies or volunteering. I kind of lost interest. I really like photography so maybe I’ll take a class for that, but most are really expensive. Since I’m feeling apathetic it doesn’t really feel appealing right now. I noticed I’ve started drinking more too. I’m going to become like my crappy drunk friends soon. Ugh…