You are very right as I constantly seek a comfort zone that prevents me from experiencing the severe extent of pain and depression  that I’m going through. It would be much easier just to go back home and try again. He’s now moving on to the next level trying to convince me. Encouraging me to stay the night so we can spend all night together, talkin about starting date nights, and all these elaborate plans for the future even when I’m saying that I don’t agree. He even wants to take the kids out and apologize to them supposedly. I know he would put on the best front that he can for as long as he could but eventually the real him would return I just can’t bring myself to risk that but I do want it so bad. He is running out of money and rent is due so I know his intensity is stemming from that but I can’t help it still believe it. His whole demeanor and even tone of voice has changed but will he ever?