Dear name:
Maybe it took you two years to recover, that is, to get to a place you were before the breakdown. But before the breakdown you needed healing and you still do. So following the recovery there is healing work to do. It has taken me so far seven years to heal and I am still in the process of healing.
The process of healing included understanding why you act like you do and changing behavior from ineffective to effective, from dysfunctional to functional, so that you act for your best interest, not against your best interest. I personally wasted years and decades behaving against my best interest. I hope you waste less time than I have wasted. It is possible to heal and I hope you do.
Would you like to share more, anything about your breakdown, about your recovery and/ or the present behaviors that you are so frustrated with?
anita