Dear Anita,

You got the parentheses right. I am referring to Debbie when I said “she”. We had this conversation when we started our relationship. So it is a past tense which no longer is relevant when I am no longer with her.

What I am trying to say is even if I do leave my family, I will not just abandon my children and stop communicating with them. I will try to continue to fulfill being a father. Talk to them via conference or pay for their tuition and so on. Not like ceasing all communications with them and leaving them for good which is not something I can do to my children. Love them dearly. Anyway, this is a past now. I will just need to suck it up. Thanks for listening to me. It really helps to make things better.

Sleeping at night is still not easy. I have this internal clock in me that will make me wake up in the middle of the night. Like around 5am. That’s because during the time when I was still with Debbie, I would wake up early to text with her before she go to work. I will wish her “a good day” every morning. Now it is build into me and I just naturally wake up early morning. Sometimes I barely sleep 3 hours.