This is a book. Sorry

So there’s more to my ex’s relationship than I’ve told you. I just realized a coincidence. I could be full of crap but here it is.

So we were happy. Really happy for a long time. I fact in February 2017 she found out that her brother was getting married in late September 2017. At that time she told me I was going. It was going to be in vegas(that’s where he lives). So I was thrilled. Of coarse I wanted to go. It was going to be a 3 night 3 day trip.

Fast forward to late August. I was at the doctor and I was filling out my paperwork and I texted her “can I ask you something?” (That was one of our things too). She said “of coarse, anything”. I asked her “ will you be my …” then I said “emergency contact?”  She said” of coarse” and “next time you start a question like that it better be in person?”. (These may not be word for word but really damn close).   So later that week she told her boys that she was buying tickets for the trip in one month. And her oldest son (19) flipped out and was pissed or upset that I was going. He then dropped the bomb on her that he planned on going into the marines after the wedding and told her he thought it was going to be a family trip with her and his brother only.

Well they fought about it for a week or so and eventually she caved. I wasn’t going. I didn’t tell her how I felt because I thought she was dealing with enough shit. I just said I understood and let it happen.

well they go on the trip. I dropped them off at the airport and she could tell I was hurt. I was even watching her dog for her now that I wasn’t going. I was just trying to be there for her.

That night she tried calling me and I missed her call. I called right back but no answer, twice. Not even a text that night after. She did leave a nice message saying she would call me when she can.

Well as the weekend went on I was good and waited to hear from her before I texted her, but she never would text me so I did around lunch and at night. But the messages were brief. Long story short we never talked on the phone once that weekend and hardly texted at all.

Keep in mind just one month earlier she went there for the bachorlette party weekend and I left her alone then as well, but she made sure to text and call a lot and always told me she loved me and missed me.

Well I pick them all up from the airport and she acts like she hasn’t seen me in a year. But they had to hit the road. So the next morning I waited to text her till about 11:00 cause I figured she would be busy at work.

Pause- up until this point we texted on and off all day from before she left for work until we went to bed and talked at least twice a day. – back to my story

When I texted and asked her how work was she told me she didn’t go in and had the day scheduled off. I thought it was odd that she was home all morning and didn’t text like she normally did. But I didn’t say anything. We hardly texted that day as well. That night we talked. Finally after 4 nights(besides the 10 minute car ride from the airport to my house). She was real brief and impersonal. I asked about the weekend and wedding and she told me as if she was reading an itinerary. Real quick. Maybe 1-2 minutes. Then she was done. Goodnight.

In the next 4 days texting was at a minimum and we didn’t talk on the phone ( her choice). That weekend she told me we needed a break. She said she was f&$@ed up and wasn’t meant to be in a relationship. And it has nothing to do with me. I was destroyed. How can only one month before she can be joking/serious about marriage and now this?

Well we texted a little bit and one of her texts was pretty bad. Some of the words was “this was never intentional” and “I’m not a hypocrite” and that “you should move on and start a new chapter in your life”. I was lost and crushed. This went on for two weeks. We kept in touch but not much. Some of her texts were mean and hurtful like she was trying to get me to leave her.

After two weeks she told me she missed me and we need a weekend together just us. So I made it happen. That next weekend we stayed out of town together. It was good but she told me more of all of her problems she was facing. Then she told me about the wedding finally. Well I forgot to say that her brother is in a biker “club”. A pretty big one. So for the wedding the rented a hotel in the middle of the desert for everyone one big biker “club” party. She told me about one of the guys. He had tattoos on his head. She said he asked her to go back to his room and make bad decisions. I asked like what and she said i don’t know but thought it was funny. After that weekend things got kind of better for a couple weeks then she turned cold again.

It was coming up on our one year date of meeting each other and we haven’t seen each other for a week. And she didn’t want to on that weekend either. So for our “anniversary “ of one year I had flowers delivered to her work three different times that day. I thought it would be romantic.  Well  that backfired  when they delivered the second batch she texted me “more flowers, seriously? I thought we talked about moderation.  They are beautiful though”  so I told her about the third delivery and she felt like an asshole .  That night we talked about it and she said again she was f$&@ed up  and broke.  well that next night I went to text her friend about the flower comment to see what she thought because my ex really wouldn’t talk much  or really tell me what was going on.  I accidentally sent it to her  that’s how she found out about me talking to her friend.  The next day is when she broke up with me.  She said it wasn’t the reason and that it had nothing to do with me and that I deserve someone better.  And that she is broken and not meant for a relationship and never thought she would be better.

Well I found out barely a month and a day after she broke up with me she met someone else and that’s the guy she is with now.

Thats when it got real ugly.

So fast forward to a month ago  that’s when I sent her that letter.  I asked her straight out if she messed around or even cheated on me in Vegas and that’s why when she got back it felt like she couldn’t be with me or talk to me as much or like she did before  there was just some kind of wierd tension.  She was hurt that I would think that, but really gone for a wedding party weekend and then everything changes?  She said she never ever cheated on me and never would.  That’s when she told me about the red flags.

well I guess my point to all this is that she visited her brother last weekend in  Vegas and that’s when she stopped texting me again.  Just seems odd to me.  Really makes me wonder if something did happen and going there brought up guilt?  I could be full of crap  just kind of hit me though.

Sorry about the book.