Resilience is the ability to bounce back and get back up when we are pushed over. It seems you have been through a hardship. The best you can do now is take this experience, learn from it and apply it to your life. That way you can accept it and come to terms with your feelings and as a result you will become a better version of yourself and enjoy life more. Beautiful things such as diamonds and pearls are formed by immense pressure and hardship and don’t just happen by chance.