Thank you so much Anita it is really amazing to hear some validation today it was a hard day and I worried about it for months, but I did make it through. I had stopped going to the group for a little and won’t be able to go next week. When I feel depressed even that seems like too much to get up for but I know I usually felt more calm and not so alone afterwards so I am planning to attend when I can again. I am going to be eagerly waiting for my individual therapy on Tuesday. For  tonight I’m just trying to tell myself that I made it this far and I won’t feel so distressed forever. I will just need to take this day by day and give myself more compassion