Hi,

I awoke at 42, im now 44.  I am a mother of a small child 5 years old.

I was raised by a narcissistic mother and abused by her and her flying monkeys.

I tend to make poor choices, being that I raised myself from age 13 living on my own.

I got married to a deadbeat, and needed support from my family, not financial support, just people to help care for my child.

My mother insisted that I come back to the USA and leave everything behind, and I did.

My mother stated that I would have help from her, and her husband along with siblings.

I have now been here two years, and I have not been able to rely on mother or family to care for my child, though I paid out of my savings to place in her in daycare, they were still unable to pick her up or drop her off, at times.

My mother would let me down almost an hour before work, with issues of a cold, or she had to take my stepfather to urgent care, because he was drinking all of last week and this week he is dehydrated.

As, a result of poorly ran daycare, my inconsistent mother, and non compliant siblings. I decided to live off my savings until my child was able to attend school full time. My child starts school in 3 weeks.

I then thought, oh well, at least I can rely on them in an emergency.

Approximately 3 weeks ago, my mother advised me that she is moving out of the state within a year.  I was shock.

In a panic, I searched for before care and after care, emergency contacts, local neighbors and friends.

Nothing was finalized, the school care programs had not confirmed availability. I did not know people well enough to leave my child with them.

Three weeks later, my mom is packed and ready to go, her 30 year old son had found a job in another state and my mom and stepfather wanted to be close to him.  They still make his bed, serve his food, pick up his clothes the list goes on and on.

Today, I am lost I have no idea where I went wrong, and I have no idea of what is right.