@Mark, thanks for your kind words of wisdom…I will surely focus my everything towards that direction. Eventually, that is what I should do.

@anita, yes I kind of broke inside that she was able to “cheat” her husband, as opposed to what I have envisioned her character to be, what if I was married to her and if she still did this. This is the point of conflict for me and I started believing she is a habitual cheater. And the feeling there is a high chance that she might have “used” me hurts me so much.

I would not be this hurt if I had not met her at all. If she was so much to me, not just a physical thing and meant everything romantic that was around me for these 22 years, and now realizing that she used me??!!

I am unable to swallow the truth and erase my fantasy, dreams, imaginations and the worship I was doing internally.

She was constantly on whatsapp with me and spoke at least once a day for the past 8-9 months. Our offices are close-by and we met almost every other day for coffee. After this physical episode over a period of 2 months, she decided to dump me?!!

Hurts!!!!!